Here I am. At my little corner of the house, at my very untidy desk, full of books, papers, tissues, two cameras, a glass of water, an XL mug with peppermint tea, pens, pencils, highlighters, diaries, notebooks (about 3), post-its, a calendar, used up batteries, chargers, my glasses case, health insurance letters, an old newspaper, Christmas cards, a thank you note from my lovely friend’s wedding and a few other bits, eating chocolate like there’s no tomorrow and staring at the screen.
I have been binge watching Sex & the City (SATC) and ignoring my to-do list that keeps trying to catch my eye. Seriously last week, on Friday I didn’t even move from the big chair. Oh no wait that’s a lie, I moved the chair as the sun moved (like a sunflower), as to make sure my legs stayed warm (even though they were numb from NOT MOVING!!).
Yep my friends, it is true, I have the most serious case of January blues. It hit me hard this year! Either that or my Karma has caught up with me faster than I expected and I am becoming a turtle, and as so, have an uncontrollable need to hibernate. Actually that’s exactly what I feel like. No, really! I looked up the word hibernation and here’s what it says:
(Wikipedia) Hibernation is a state of inactivity and metabolic depression in endotherms. Hibernation refers to a season of heterothermy that is characterized by low body temperature, slow breathing and heart rate, and low metabolic rate.
“Low body temperature, slow breathing and heart rate, and low metabolic rate” – that’s me right there! At least on that sofa last Friday I was. That’s it! I moved on for my next life as a turtle even before actually finishing this life! Ha!
I was trying to recall whether last year it was the same, but then I remembered, last year I had something big to look for: our honeymoon! Yep, last year about this time I was packing bikinis and sunscreen and was riding an excitement wave capable of crushing any blues. It was like an excitement tsunami. This year summer, warm weather, colourful clothes, and everything else seems soooo far away that I can’t be bothered to… well to nothing…
Even though I am still practicing gratitude and I am genuinely thankful for each day on this planet, I decided it was time to book myself an intervention (AKA haircut and an afternoon tea with a friend), worried I might have been giving in to depression or something (I am inexperienced in these things so don’t mock me). The oh-so-amazing massage they always do when washing your hair at this fabulous place, didn’t do the trick though as I was even sleepier by the end of it. But then my friend cheered me up: she’s in the exact same mood! Not that I wish anyone to have the blues (kinda’ do), but it’s always good to have a friend who understands what you’re going through. So, as we each ate a whole muffin we laughed over all the nothing we’ve been doing and achieving this month. And just like that doing ‘nothing’ didn’t seem to bother me at all.
I came to the conclusion that maybe January blues are a necessary phase, maybe it’s our bodies telling us ‘oh, isn’t it nice to slow down?’. I figured that just like hibernation is vital to turtles, January blues are vital for us, allowing us to slow down, chill and restore our energies (or at least that’s my excuse).
So please excuse me while I take my inner karmic turtle on a ‘relaxing journey’ and enjoy all the nothing I can.
P.S – at least I still appreciated the beautiful sunset light (pictured).